Balada Seorang Suami Mountainbiker Jalanan

A Confessions of an ex-smoker Part 1

8:20PM : feeling sooo down... no mood.. not sure why today sooo depressed.. eventho feeling fresh but hell...i still feel like shit damn.. i feel sad sometimes .. but i have no idea what is it about.. macam pompuan dapat period pulak.. fak!!

8:25PM : makan muruku.. sambil layan tv..

9:00PM : start to feel headache.. ussually a symptom of lack of nick O teen .. feel miserable..

9:10 PM : Turun bawah.. go swimming buat 10 lap.. pening dah kurang.. still rasa something kurang.. and i know why

10:00PM : layan tv balik.. still rasa tak keruan.. gua layan Ricola sweets kejap.. pejam mata..tarik nafas dalam2.. hembuss perlahan2

10:15PM : Aku trasa lagi.. fuck!! .. cari DVD.. layan movie Dejavu.. aku senyap kejap..terlupa pasal tu

12:00AM : movie dah abis.. mula rasa balik.. rasa nak letak something yang berasap dalam mulut.. sucks!!!.. ke hulur ke hilir dalam apartment aku.. lepak kat balcony..

12:15AM : hisap sweets Ricola ... sambil servis bersihkan rantai basikal..letak degreaser utk bersihkan rantai..dari pasir kasi smooth chain tu.. tune shifter dengan derailleur.

1:00AM : Try to sleep...

1:15AM : Still can't sleep.. sambung makan muruku.. sambil layan magazine..

1:45AM : Damnn... aku masih belum mengantuk..

2:00AM : Surf the net.. reading some news..blog member2.. layan ricola sweets ..

2:30AM : Slice some fruits.. epal, pear.. continue surfing..

4:30AM : Cuba tido kembali...

5:00AM : Still can't sleep... FUCK.. i really need to fight this.. its been a week now.. i really need to keep myself busy all the time.. i kept thinking of the ciggy.. even in my dreams i can feel myself smoking it.. i think i'm in the imsonia mode rite now.. fuck!!!... never give up dude.. stay motivated.. i know you can do it rezal.. you GOT NOTHING TO LOSE... lets ride the waves